Speech, Eurovision and a sort of confession

I think I sort of have a headache. It really sucks since I should be writing my thesis or well not really writing but correcting and looking through the reference like I've been doing all week. I sort of feel like I should either go outside for a walk or possibly a run to clear my head or have a nap. But I don't think I'll be doing either. Instead I decided to write in my blog. I'm sure there's some sort of logic in me doing this.

I gave my speech thing on polymorphism in my speech class today. Rather unluckily there were only 5 people listening and that included the teacher. Usually there has bee like 10 people. Everyone just had other things to do today. But I think it's their loss. My subject was way interesting...:) The speech went rather well. I have to admit I had not really practiced though I had thought about it for like 4 weeks or something since I was the last to do my presentation. I was sort of nervous before it but that disappeared once I started speaking. I was surprised that the thing took only 5 minutes and 5 seconds which was like 5 seconds over the set time for the thing. I was scared it would go a lot over that. People remarked that I did quite good since I had loads of examples and well my presentation did sort of center around them. But it would have been really unwise to start explaining the thermodynamics and kinetics of the crystallization process and such so I had to be kind of vague. Though I think the group might now have a sort of twisted idea about the subject since they did not really understand the nature of like things like molecules and compounds but that's not really my problem in the end. I mean I did not want to present something stupid like what a "crystal structure" is and thus gave them the freedom to think what they want about it really. Now I just have to go watch the video of my speech next week and comment on it myself. I wonder how stupid I looked.

The speech class was fun today since we did little debates ans even told stories. I like telling stories about my life (like why else would I be writing this...) so it was all good.

I have a sort of problem on who I want to watch the Eurovision song contest with tomorrow. I know I want to watch it in Rentukka, the student village bar that has like a big screen for watching it, but I don't know who'll join me. If all else fails I think I will have to go there by myself and hope this cute boy will come and talk to me or that I'll go talk to him. It's just someone I met ages ago in some party of a few parties and haven't talked to in years. I think he still recognizes me. I was watching the semifinal yesterday for an hour or so in the same bar and he was there. Maybe he'll also be there tomorrow. But it's really not like "that". I just thought it might be a fun addition to the night.

Confessions... I've been meeting guys through the internet. It's been fun and all but last weekend I just decided to stop it. I deleted my profile thing (it was a really good one if I do say so myself). The reason for it was that I think I've sort of become addicted to meeting new people and it wasn't getting me anywhere but into problems finding time for my real friends. So no more blind dates for me unless my friends set them up, which they won't anyway. The problem is just that now I sort of have to find something else to do when I'm bored. Like since I don't really ever watch tv anymore I'll need a new "hobby" to take up the time I was using entertaining myself with the messages so guys had sent me and answering them in a sometimes rather overly honest manner. But yeah, I've now confessed that I've been on maybe a dozen or so blind dates in the last year and a half though I did have an eight month pause while in Germany. And I do have to admit that some of these guys I still see on occasion just because they are rather nice.