Lunch blues
I don't like lunch time. I like eating but I don't like lunch time. Huge problem. (And yes I am aware that in the grand scheme of things this is only a little problem since some other people don't have lunch breaks, some don't have food, others don't have a job, no money and so on and so forth. I on the other hand "got my arms, got my legs, got my fingers, got my...". Sorry, the song just started playing in my head and I probably didn't even get it right.) Now to the explanation.
I used to go eat with my "friends" like at least once or twice a week in the cafeterias. Now I don't anymore. No-one has asked me, the nicest people have left and I'm not one to call. I have no way to pay for my food in the cafeterias so I can't eat in those alone. (Ok so if I visited the bank to ask for a card with a chip and actually got it, then I could.)
I've gone to this one cafe right near my gate lots of times. The food is good and not too expensive but there's no change. Same meatless sandwich every day for the past 2 weeks and before that another one. It's getting boring. Not just that but the sales people probably recognize me by now and know I don't eat meat but they can't yet be so nice as to maybe make some other sandwiches. Oh, and I'm sort of embarrashed going in there like every other day all alone and probably looking annoyed (which I am, being always hungry and having to take the same sandwich). I don't want to go there anymore.
I've also eaten at a lunch room in my building (there's one on each floor). When I eat there I always get a sandwich from this other sandwich shop near the gate (though I could bring my own lunch but I haven't gotten orientated into that yet). This sandwich is even more boring and not even good but that's not the biggest problem. People sleep in the lunch room. Yes, sleep. I feel really quilty going in there and munching chips and a sandwich when other people are sleeping. The place is really horrible. Bad atmosphere. (I miss the coffee room at my last job.) I don't want to eat in the lunch room anymore.
There's also other restaurants I could eat in like a kebeb place I've gone to a few times but I don't want to eat in those by myself. Besides it always rains and I don't want to go any further than that one cafe.
The depressing end result is that I don't want to go have my lunch break. I really dread it. I have to though since I do need to eat and my co-worker wants to sleep during lunch in the lab. This situation is really getting to me. Last week I could still handle the it but this week I'm just really not liking it. I don't know what to do about it. It's ruining my work days.
(Otherwise work is good. I like it since I actually know what to do in my experiments and I'm getting confident in doing stuff on my own. I got the books mom and dad sent me yesterday so no problems with free time either.)
Oh. Found it...
I got my hair, I got my head. I got my brains, I got my ears. I got my eyes, I got my nose. I got my mouth, I got my smile. I got my tongue, I got my chin. I got my neck, I got my tits. I got my heart, I got my soul. I got my back, I got my sex. I got my arms, I got my hands. I got my fingers, Got my legs. I got my feet, I got my toes. I got my liver, Got my blood. Got life , I got my life. (Ain't Got No/I Got Life, Nina Simone) :D
I used to go eat with my "friends" like at least once or twice a week in the cafeterias. Now I don't anymore. No-one has asked me, the nicest people have left and I'm not one to call. I have no way to pay for my food in the cafeterias so I can't eat in those alone. (Ok so if I visited the bank to ask for a card with a chip and actually got it, then I could.)
I've gone to this one cafe right near my gate lots of times. The food is good and not too expensive but there's no change. Same meatless sandwich every day for the past 2 weeks and before that another one. It's getting boring. Not just that but the sales people probably recognize me by now and know I don't eat meat but they can't yet be so nice as to maybe make some other sandwiches. Oh, and I'm sort of embarrashed going in there like every other day all alone and probably looking annoyed (which I am, being always hungry and having to take the same sandwich). I don't want to go there anymore.
I've also eaten at a lunch room in my building (there's one on each floor). When I eat there I always get a sandwich from this other sandwich shop near the gate (though I could bring my own lunch but I haven't gotten orientated into that yet). This sandwich is even more boring and not even good but that's not the biggest problem. People sleep in the lunch room. Yes, sleep. I feel really quilty going in there and munching chips and a sandwich when other people are sleeping. The place is really horrible. Bad atmosphere. (I miss the coffee room at my last job.) I don't want to eat in the lunch room anymore.
There's also other restaurants I could eat in like a kebeb place I've gone to a few times but I don't want to eat in those by myself. Besides it always rains and I don't want to go any further than that one cafe.
The depressing end result is that I don't want to go have my lunch break. I really dread it. I have to though since I do need to eat and my co-worker wants to sleep during lunch in the lab. This situation is really getting to me. Last week I could still handle the it but this week I'm just really not liking it. I don't know what to do about it. It's ruining my work days.
(Otherwise work is good. I like it since I actually know what to do in my experiments and I'm getting confident in doing stuff on my own. I got the books mom and dad sent me yesterday so no problems with free time either.)
Oh. Found it...
I got my hair, I got my head. I got my brains, I got my ears. I got my eyes, I got my nose. I got my mouth, I got my smile. I got my tongue, I got my chin. I got my neck, I got my tits. I got my heart, I got my soul. I got my back, I got my sex. I got my arms, I got my hands. I got my fingers, Got my legs. I got my feet, I got my toes. I got my liver, Got my blood. Got life , I got my life. (Ain't Got No/I Got Life, Nina Simone) :D
posted by elisa @ 17:43
6 Comments:
At 16/8/06 22:43,
Anonymous said…
Saddest blog post till the day :D
At 17/8/06 11:00,
Antti Koivisto said…
Yeah, this was really sad. I hope you have some experiences or anything really to cheer you up. Maybe you could go and eat outside, like in a park or sometkign. But that may look even sadder, you sitting on a bench eating a sandwich while holding an umbrella. =)
At 17/8/06 13:21,
elina said…
Sorry to say this, but I think you'll just have to start calling the other people and get that card. I dreaded lunch at my current work for a while since nobody ever asked me to go as they passed by asking everyone else. So, for a while I brought in my own food and just felt real sad during lunch. then I decided to change that and just bounced up everytime the other people walked by and told them to wait up for me. Now they pass by here every time and make sure I notice.
So forget those boring sandwitches (misspelled) and call those people and start showing up. Ask them to go to the places you go too. They propably just think you don't want to go with them.
We are so alike in ways...
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At 17/8/06 15:54,
Anonymous said…
i think it makes sense what elina just wrote
At 17/8/06 16:51,
elisa said…
Oh but the people I could have lunch with are leaving in like two weeks. Or the last of them anyway since most already left. And them working at least 1 km away from me might affect the situation. This problem needs long term solutions and not just for like the rest of this month.
Going to get the card does make sense though. "I'll do it tomorrow."
And well I know I'm being silly. Some people would just not have problems like these being all social and such. I don't like depending on other people to determine when I have lunch. Ok so I might also have a problem with only being a hang-around with my "friends" here. I like being the boss or at least having equal say in things. (Yes, that's me: the center of attention or the person disappearing silently off to the right.)
Gotta go home. It's finally sunny. :)
At 18/8/06 15:31,
Anonymous said…
hey gini u gotta cheer up a bit. I've had a similar issue with lunches here at work and I just decided I wasn't gonna make a big deal out of it. Don't have your meatless diet, but still food here sucks (and i really do mean it, it's horrid). Problem is similar, don't really know anyone that well yet (except for work-thingies, nothing personal about them at all) also I sit in the 'back office' so to speak, so it's not in the way to anywhere and when people go eat, i don't hear about it. If I try timing by the clock it's a lost cause becouse i get so into my work it's suddenly 15:15 and I haven't had lunch at all. And well basicly even if i do go RIGHT on time, and if there's something worth eating (that'll happen ye) - people there that I work with are around 30 years older than me and the talk subjects are.. well, less appealing to me than them.
The thing I've done is the sandwich run, just make one home, something excuisite (guessing my picks aren't no use to u here) and eat it at your desk. AFTER work it's time to enjoy a healthy lunch at home, homemade of course. Not very social, but keeps the 'family-bad-anger-management-while-hungry' gene at bay succesfully.
I guess I'll ram myself into some group which eats outside work, when I get around to it. Actually I'm hoping they hire someone around my age to chitchat with during lunches - but as usual.. prolly not gonna happen.
baah, i've rambled enough - hungry as u can see - and gotta leave work to spend my weekend at the kitchen (yes, it's ALMOST done!) project.
take care and have a great & relaxing weekend (me want one of those too sometime soon).
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