Post #160: A dream, gaming in a skirt and the gym

I had this dream last night where I was giving this talk about polymorphism, "surprisingly" (the subject of my master's thesis). The thing was that it was really difficult since like all these people were bothering me and stuff. Like these girls put like this music (like dance-pop Madonna) really loud and no-one could hear me. And I was like "is someone going to take care that those people don't bother my presentation?" and no-one did. So I had to go have a fight with the girls (like people from junior high..? Something to do with the up-coming "class reunion" that most likely only me and my sis are going to) for them to turn it down. I think I did get them to turn it down eventually. But like the weird thing was that all through the music and various other interruptions, that I can't remember, I stayed calm and just tried to do my presentation. I was like "well, I'm here to give this talk and that's what I'll do". It was really weird. Like after I got the music turned down I just went back to my slide show and was like "excuse me for that and let's continue on with polymorphism".

I went to play board games again yesterday. It was quite fun. I actually won this one game. I kind of finally figured out how to play it. But I have to admit the game relies a lot on good luck. Since all the other people were guys I just had to go in a skirt. I was the happy summer-me and it was fun. I think I'll also go next week. I don't know if I wrote about how my ex was like "why do you want to go there? - there are just nerdy guys there" and I was like "and that differs from my current and usual company how?". I'm thinking maybe by going there I can also brighten up someone else's day in addition to brightening mine.

I made this weird observation at the gym on Monday when I went to this healthy back -class. Like sort of like aerobics concentrating on getting a healthy back. But there are these mirrors on the walls and I was looking at them and noticed that I have like this really weird body shape as compared to the others. It was bizarre really since I'd never really thought about it or had like an equal chance to compare. I can't really say what was so weird about me. Maybe it was my posture or something like that or maybe it was just my clothes (red pants and a green top = too colorful?). It might also have been my attitude towards the class or something like that but after I noticed it, I felt like other people also noticed and the instructor sort of tried to see that I was doing things right but sort of didn't have the courage to really say anything to me. Ok, so maybe I'm just imagining the part about other people looking at me weird.

The food at the cafeteria was really awful today. And I had to like try to eat as much as I could since I'm going to the gym after work. I just could not eat all the "fruity vegetable risotto" and I'm sure anyone who happened to glance my way noticed I was having trouble with it. I think I usually must look deathly bored in the cafeteria but in addition I must have looked like I have some sort of eating disorder that I'm desperately fighting against by forcing food into my mouth. Luckily tomorrow they should have better food. Thank goodness.