Post #120: Writing the thesis and other things

So I've been trying to write my theoretical part today. I think I've done an ok job at it. So I haven't really written much and well it is only like 2 o'clock and I should keep working for like two more hours but still. I've more dealt with what I'm going to write and what the message I want to get across is. I've redone part of my table of contents and figured out a good enough way to classify this one section so it makes some sense. I think that is important. And well if I haven't gotten much done in one sense then I can always blame being sick. My brain just isn't working like it should.

I actually got most of the cleaning I was supposed to do yesterday done. I vacuumed, did the dishes, unpacked and organized some things and even planted my easter grass. The only thing I did not do was changing water in the small aquarium. I'm feeling a bit guilty about that. Poor little froggies. I don't even know when I fed them last. I guess I'm just not that oriented to taking care of aquariums and not having the big one sort of hasn't made my brain wake up to the fact that I'm supposed to like clean the things. Or well I am also a bit lazy as people may know. I did also have to take a nap yesterday since otherwise I would not have been able to do anything. I was putting things away one at a time and had to like lie down in between. I think taking a nap today is also a good idea. And tomorrow too since I have to stay up late tomorrow selling tickets at this event from eleven to one at night. But the event should be fun. It's the annual night of poetry and wine at the bar in the student village. I haven't even been to the bar in like a year.

But I think I will be off home now for my nap. Feeling kind of guilty about leaving early but I am sick and other people (smart people) would have just stayed home for the day.

In the office

I finally got my computer at work to let me sign in. I got the actual computer on Friday but I just could not sign in so it was like having no computer at all. So today I have been going round the departments handling the situation. Well see first on Friday I just could not find the room where I was supposed to get help. Then today I finally found it but the guy could not help me since he did not have the authority to change my password, which was like the problem. But now the situation is finally fixed but I have not gotten any real work done today and I don't think I will.

I think I'm sort of sick. My throat started being weird yesterday and it got worse at night. Now the weather outside is great but I should stay in the house to get well. And I do have loads to do at home. I just wish this thing does not get worse since I really have no time to be sick. Things to do, people to see, walls to climb and so on. Next week would be calmer.

But the point of this post is say "oh yeah, I can finally start working like in my office". Or well I think I'll really start working tomorrow. I got my to-do -list ready for tomorrow so I should be able to start first thing in the morning. Graduation here I come.

Fun weekend

I just unpacked - took everything out of my bag and left it on the floor. I'll clear it up tomorrow. I'll clean my appartment tomorrow. I'll do the dishes tomorrow and wash laundry and tons of other things too.

I just got back from Helsinki. I had a fun weekend. A good friend of mine got married. It was a great wedding. At least I had tons of fun. They had great food and way too much to drink. I didn't drink too much but I could have. The band was good, the company was good, the bride beautiful, the bestman kind of cute and the whole atmosphere just right. What else could a person ask for? Oh, well I have to mention these cool really old people who were just partying away with the young folks. That was cool.

I also got to play singstar with my sister. It was great. I really "need" to get a playstation. Not that I have a tv to hook it up to or that I'd actually have friends that would play it with me. But anyway. Or maybe I just need to visit my sister more often.

So all is well.

No internet

The internet in my appartment has been down since Sunday afternoon so I haven't been able to write about all the cool things that I've been up to. Like the party on Saturday for that association I've been in for ages. Or the election coffee -afternoon I had at my place on Sunday, or me going to see a friend on Monday since the internet was not working, or Friday night watching a movie and drinking wine and champagne and eating cheese, or the climbing course starting yesterday, or how I still don't have a computer in my office. And then I haven't been able to tell you about me going to work with my laptop and it being sort of hard to breath cause the bag gets heavy. And I haven't expressed my opinions on the outcome of the elections.

So you have missed all these great and interesting stories about my comings and goings. I will tell you one story. It's about me going for lunch in the cafeteria on Monday. I'm sure it's not very interesting really but it was hilarious at the time. So yeah I go get food at the cafeteria. Get my fork and knife but then there are no salad plates. The guy after me has taken the last one. Very sneaky and he looks at me very weirdly when I comment on it. So yeah I don't know what to do. I don't feel like going to the cashier to tell her about the plates. So I get a big plate to put all my food on. so yeah since I've been standing around sort of with a "what am I going to do now" -thought in my brain for a while because of the salad plate thing I forget to take butter on my bread. Disastrous for sure. But that is not all. They'd run out of the good bread. But that's not all. The plate I took for my food was incredibly hot so that I could not hold it in my hands and this would have been no problem (other than my salad getting warm) but I could not get enough lingonberry jam for my cabbagecasserole because the jam was on top of the shelf and I could not lift my plate. Surprisingly I was not so messed up about all this to do what I sometimes do when I'm not paying attention and accidentally pour my glass full of the juice syrup. I mean that would have just made the story. So yeah the best part of the whole thing was I think in the end telling my friend all this in a "what a disaster"- sort of voice. It was a fun lunch even though I did not have enough lingonberry jam or any butter on my bread.

I hope the internet starts working again though tonight I'm finally going climbing again. What fun!

Too much stuff

On Thursday I was at work for 30 minutes after which I went home to "work". See I did not have a computer and it's sort of difficult to write my thesis thing without one. Well of course working at home did not really work. I got some writing/correcting done. Then I cleaned my balcony, rearranged the room a bit, tried to unpack a box of things and just aranged stuff. It was really nice arranging stuff since I'd not had the urge to do that before. I noticed that I have tons of stuff I really don't need. I don't know what to do with them. Like my magic eightball. I don't really need it but it's so great and such. I don't really have o good place for it either but it's the sort of thing one has to keep somewhere where it can be used easily sice otherwise there really is no point in having it. So it's on my microwave shelf, the one that is too small for a microwave oven. Another example is my lavalamp. I like that thing but now since I rearranged I really don't have a place for it (uh oh I wonder if ti's too tall for my microwave shelf). I don't know what to do with the lamp. So yeah. I have too much stuff. And I noticed this while emptying just one box of stuff. I have like maybe two more to go. All I really miss now are my refrigerator magnets. They weren't in the first box. I'll have to find them somewhere. Ok so I also miss my big aquarium which I'll hopefully be able to get soon. I just have to figure out how and when.

Today there's a party for this assosiation I've been in for like since I started studying. I hope it's a good party. At least I'll see people I know and hopefully some older people from the assosiation. It should be cool. Good food and good company for sure. But now I think I have to start the day, take a shower and go to the supermarket to get things for tomorrow. I'll bake something for my friends. Hopefully they'll come and eat.

Last day, climbing and a new shirt

It's my last day of "freedom". Tomorrow I have to go to work. Well I'll really be doing the same thing I would be doing anyways so it's really a good deal really to get paid for it too. But it might be the beginning of the "eight to four -working days of the rest of my life till retirement". Though it's really most likely not like that in the end. I mean it's still studies. But that's all about that.

I enrolled on a climbing course today. I was just meant to ask about it but there was one next week so I just enrolled. It's only like two nights of which only one is actual climbing but I'm just hoping to meet people and have a tour of the climbing place I've never been to before. It should be fun.

I found a shirt for the party on Saturday. I don't know if the shirt is really nice but I was just too bored to go find anything else so I just got it. It was green and see-through with like leaf or flower pattern. I can have a green sleeveless top underneath. It was different from what i would usually have. I'm just trying something new now. So I might look pregnant in it but who cares. It's green. I'll look great anyways.

Nothing changes

I just got up from my laptop having finally most likely chosen who to vote for in the upcoming elections. And then I saw him. Not the person I'm going to vote for. This old man who always used to walk past my window with like his walking sticks (kävelysauvat?) dragging behind him. Now I just need to se the "the slowest dog in the world walking with the slowest woman in the world" and I'll be convinced that I wasn't really away at all.

I just had to tell someone about the man. Now I'm off to go shopping.

Snowboarding holiday

I was just on a snowboarding holiday. It was great. Well the weather was not the -5 celsius and sunny that I had ordered but in the end the +3 and sleeting was not that bad even if it did make it quite hard to actually get down the hill at times. That is the board would not move in the "snow". But I actully could still jump after I got back the courage to try. There was only one good box to jump on though. but I did get a few really good jumps with grabs when I got enough speed. The cabin was just great. It even had a dishwasher. That just might have saved us from loads of uncomfortable situations. Or saved someone from feeling they had been used. Not me. I'm sure I would have done the dished once and sort of wiggled myself out of doing it again.

There were only 5 of us in the cabin and we could have fit in like at least 3 more. Well we did have 3 people over every night. The "trailerpark trash" -boys came to eat and use the sauna end at times entertain us with their company. It was a working arrangement I think. And it made me not be the only vegetarian, which was nice. We even had lasagne one night. It was great of course even though we had many cooks. The secret of the success was me putting in tons of garlic. We even had to go get more since we'd used some the previous night. I think we ate rather much garlic really. But it was great. Good food, good company, snowboarding, hot chocolate at Ripa's (cool place for it with good service on top of the hill), sauna, a "kota" outside where we had a fire one night. How could it not have been fun. We even went out on Saturday and I had loads of fun. I got to know one of my cousins better, had surprisingly good vegetarian food, danced the night away and all in all had fun.

I actually did not go anywhere from the area of the hill and the cottage for like three days. Not even the store. It was funny noticing it. But there was no reason to go since I had everything I needed. Ok so other people went to the store to get food and stuff to drink. I think I could have spent another four days at the cottage without getting bored of just hanging out there and snowboarding. But coming back home is not so bad either.

I got my small aquarium back today. Three frogs left of four. The fish is dead but that was expected as it was already way old for the type of fish it was. I will most likely get a new one. It just brightens up the little tank to have something moving in it since sometimes the little froggies can only be seen with a trained eye. Now I just have to figure out when to get the big aquarium back and put the big pile of stuff from the floor somewhere and I can have people other than my best friends over. Or in other words - a party. :) But that will be in like two weeks or more. Possibly a month. I'm giving myself time. Work starts on Thursday.

The past days

Loads of things have been happening to me. Here is a short summary of events... Ask me if you want more details.

I had too much champagne the night before I left Germany. I think I may have been hungover on the bus to the airport. The bus was full of some group of Finns. I sat in the back since it was the only free space. I may have been checking out the guy next to me. The guy came to talk to me in the airport. I was like "what, someone is talking to me". He thought I was foreign even though I think I look quite Finnish really. Turns out it was a group of evangelists who'd had this training thing on how to trun people towards God. When I found this out I was like "they seemed normal". But yeah the guy did end up asking me what I think about God. I was like "I don't talk about it - it's personal". Luckily he believed me. Teh rest of the trip went quite well.

Teh next day my friend had her bacheloret party. It was great. I had tons of fun. I took like 200 pictures with my new camera. Now I don't know what to do with them. There's just too many. But at least I used my camera loads. so it was not a bad buy. This guy came to hit on me in the bar. He bought me a drink even though I warned him he won't get anything but conversation from me. I guess he did not believe me since he bought two drinks, a tequila and a gin and tonic. Then I talked to him till I think he got bored and finally believed what I warned him about and thus left. I was like - "what did I tell you"... I guess I look easy or else people in like Helsinki are just so cold-looking and I just wasn't. Anyways. I even got back to my sisters place.

I don't think I've ever been so drunk as I was on Saturday. I mean I tried to think clearly but my brain just was not working. It did not even work on Sunday. I think I have to stop killing braincells. I don't ever want to feel that stupid anymore. Now that I look back it's quite a wonder that I did not feel at all bad that night. I was feeling a bit bad on the bus to Pori on Sunday though but it passed when I left the bus.

But I finally got to Jyväskylä on Monday. I have not really organized my flat that much yet. I'll have time next week. Now I'm just getting ready to go snowboarding. I even bought a helmet yesterday. I want my brain to be saved if something happens. Else I won't really have a future. It's my favorite part of me. It used to be my wrists but I broke one ages ago while snowboarding and it has just never looked the same afterwards.

It's been great seeing all the people I know. They are just great people.

New name, new goal

Yesterday was my last day at work. Today is my last day in Germany. Then it's off to finish my studies at the university and then start on more studies. Thankfully I'll get paid. So I'm going to be a crystallographer. That is, I'll try to figure out the structures of molecules in crystals. It's quite funny really since it's sort of what I've been thinking I want to do for quite a while and now I get to do it. I wouldn't really say it's my dream come true since I don't really have dreams of that sort. Career oriented people are supposed to have like 5 year goals/plans/dreams but I don't think I've ever really had one. I mean I have my goal to graduate of course but that doesn't count really since it's just finishing what I started. But yeah I guess I have a goal now which is to become a crystallographer.

So yeah the next four or so years of my life are sort of beginning in a few weeks time after I settle back into my appartment. But I think I "want much more from this potential life". (That song from Disney's Beauty and the Beast) But some things can't be planned like graduating. I do know that when I get back and settled in again at home I have a chance to sort of begin again where I want to be. Sort of get a new life. Not that there's anything wrong with the old one but making more friends for like climbing or something seems like a good idea and I think I sort of want to also get some other new hobby. I mean I will have time opening up since I probably won't be doing so much work in the associations and such I've been in.

Exciting times ahead. That's what I think. I can't wait. Or well I can but I don't think I have to.
Consequently, the blog has a new name and I'm off again to do my thing.

Interesting (?) fact about me: When I wake up and don't really want to get up (like every morning) I first sing, in my head, from this blur song that goes something like so "Good morning lethargy, drink pepsi blaa blaa" (Ok so I had to check the actual lyrics) then I go into a version of the toys'r'us theme of "I don't wanna wake up, I'm a toys'r'us kid, there's a million toys in toys'r'us that I can play with". So there you go. You now know something not everyone knows about me.