Post number 50

Real quickly now. I'm at work really late on a friday. Unbelievable. Had a chat with the boss.

So I'm going to Prague for 4 days (unless I miss the train at 6:30 am tomorrow, way too early again) since I have a long weekend coming up. Should be fun. I'll see if I remember any places. It should be different since it is not winter now. I'll get some pictures too since the last time I had not bought my digital camera yet (I bought it in like a month of the trip). I know I must have taken pictures while there with my old camera but everything, when it comes to pictures, is so "before and after the digital age". I wonder where all my old pictures are. Or the ones that are not in my lovely albums.

Nice weekend everyone. I'll tell you stuff about the trip on wednesday unless I'm too busy. And just as a reminder: I'll be online on the weekend of 6-8.10 (that is the 6-8. of october). I'll be wanting to hear all about the people I have not been in much contact with so be prepared.

Endlich

They've arrived. They've finally arrived. My new dance mats along with the converter. I got them at work since the delivery firm would not deliver them to me at my flat after four. So now they are here in the lab under my table. I wonder how I'm going to "smuggle" them through the gates. They sometimes check packages and I'm not sure how I'm going to explain having dance mats at work. But no worries. I'm sure it will all be fine. I might fit one in my bag and the other on the back of my bike. After my German course I will have to test whether they work unless I'm too tired. Yesterday I might have gone to sleep at eight and almost did too. I was just tired.

Now I can have dance parties. It might be that no-one will be interested but at least I'll have some way to get some exercise even if I am too tired to leave home or something. I hope I'll get used to the mats them of course not being so good as the ones I have at home.

But I'll leave work now. Earlier than usual. Have to go eat at home before the German class since I have to drag the dance mats home too. Have to go by the bank too to transfer some money to Finland. As of today I have no more money saved up for anything. It's really sad so I'll try saving while I'm here.

German course

Second German class yesterday. Went by nicely. The teacher is an old lady and seem very nice. The atmosphere is relaxed and there are some 20 of us students. There's people from Ukraine, Greece, Irak, somewhere in Africa (Togo or something), China and some other countries I guess. The only problem I now have is where I sit. I did my "almost born to be a leader" -thing and sat somewhere close to the front (the tables are arranged in a rectangle of sorts like in a circle so everyone can see everyone). (Born leaders sit front and center in case someone does not know this fact learned at an AIESEC conference. I used to sit in the back to the side but decided I wanted to be almost born to be a leader and changed this habit some years ago.) The thing is that the person siting next to me, in the very front, is this lady who speaks a lot, but not to me. We have to be a pair in the pair activities and she just isn't co-operating. Might have to do with me not seeming very talkative since I'm not that good in German. But it's really annoying since I don't think I'll learn that good if she does not speak to me since then I will not speak to her.

I know this problem could most likely be solved by just moving somewhere else to sit but it's hard with everyone always picking the same seat as the first time, as is the custom in the world. I did try to sit one seat away from her last time closer to this other girl but the during the pair activities I had to move back next to the lady. Luckily on thursday we are going to a different classroom so I can sit somewhere else at least if I get there early enough. Hopefully it will work.

I guess there are some rules to which article comes with which word like der with words ending in r but for words like pizza it's just about guessing right. I think it was die Pizza. It would have been helpful had I taken the grammar book I've been keeping since highschool but for some reason I left it in Jyväskylä. Smart thinking.

Having tonight to go to the store and such and having called my friend yesterday and him saying that we will be staying in a hotel I'm not nearly as stressed about the trip anymore. I even bought some travel size shampoo and such yesterday. All should be good as long as the weather is good.

One problem I am now soon facing is to do with laundry. Since I can only buy washing tokens on thursdays at six o'clock and I have German classes on thursdays at six o'clock, I now have no idea how I will get more washing tokens. I have 2 left but that will just not be enough till december. I also want to buy some drying tokens since I have none. Oh, what am I to do? And yes this is indeed most likely the most serious problem I am now facing. That is just how my life is.

Over the river and...

Yesterday was the first German lesson. I did fine with sentence structure but when it came to articles I was totally lost. But how am I supposed to know which word is feminine, masculine or neutral. Also would help if I remembered where to use the different forms and such. But I guess I should do fine on the course. I am not stupid after all though it has been a long time since I studied languages.

Kim's fastfood was also a good choice. They had changed the order of the menu so I was sort of lost looking for the fried noodles but eventually found the number. Next time I go there I will have to try something else. They have like 8 or so vegetarian options. But today I think I'll go have some lentil soup in a Turkish place though those a way more scary to go into. A person has to eat though.

I bought 2 books yesterday. Also a dictionary and the book for the German course. I'm not sure my system of choosing books is that wise in a way. I pick the longest ones. The more pages for my money the better. This time I got one Brittish singles book and one fantasy book by this author of the trilogy Maria sent me to read. There will be more books in the fantasy series so as long as I can find them in the book stores I should be set for quite a long time. That is if I even have time to read anymore with 3 nights of my week in German classes. I'm sort of stressed about that already though that is mostly because I'm supposed to be maybe going to Prague this weekend (a long one since monday and tuesday are off) and I have no time to plan a thing and I'm not sure the other people will appreciate that. And I want to plan since I have no intention of sleeping in train stations or anything of that sort. And the point being that I also want to sleep. Oh I am stressed about the trip (I don't really want to go to Prague since it's far and I've been there, though that was in the winter, but what else am I going to do for 4 days.). Time just goes by so fast. Like now I have to get going if I want to have time to eat.

It's raining

It's raining. I have to bike across the river to the first lesson of my German course. Oh, why does it have to rain. I'm also convinced that when I get to the course someone for some reason will tell me that I cannot participate and will have to take a more expensive course or something.

Whoa. That was close. Almost forgot to go get the bike key in time. That with the rain would just have made my day. Though then I could have taken the tram and I would not get so wet maybe.

Went on a 60 km bicycle trip on saturday. It was fun and I want to do it again. The weather was great since the sun was shining all day and it was like 25 °C most likely. I was afraid I'd get burned but miraculously I did not. (Thought about putting on sun screen just as I walked out the door but didn't. That would usually amount to having needed it but luckily not this time.) Used the very new bikes of my boss and her boyfriend. Makes me want to get a bike for myself again. I'm just worried it would get stolen.

But gotta go. Tschüss!

Blabbering

I miss my books. Not the weird collection of fiction I've got collected in my appartment (or the cellar of the house) in Finland but the chemistry books. Looking for references I could use for thermal analysis methods is stupid to do from the company library when I had a good book right in my shelf at home. And if I did not have a good enough book the university library had lots. No way to get to any of those sources of information now. Articles I can print out from various journals just don't have the simple information I would like to read to get oriented to actually writing something myself. At home I would also look the notes from the course I was on a year ago and all would return to my head. I did get an A on the course...:) But no, I'm just wasting my time at work doing practically nothing - "writing and planning the writing" of my master's thesis. The truth is I might have wasted today. Better luck next week I guess. I've got one book I can read and two articles. That should get me started.

I figured out what was wrong with my phone. I'm telling this just to make people know I'm not the kind of person who does not wake up to an alarm. Well, for some reason the alarm only did a little kling/piip when going on. I checked all the setting but it seemed nothing was the matter. I even tried changing the tune for it but nothing worked. While changing the tune though I noticed that some of the files did not work and upon further investigation it turned out that for some reason or another none of the tunes nor pictures on my phone worked. Well what does a smart person do when the memory of one's phone is broken or such. I turned my phone off, took out the battery and sim-card and put it back together again. And everything started working again. The only part I don't get is that according to my knowledge the tunes are saved on the phone memory and moving the battery should not affect that. Right? Well anyway. I guess I must have banged the phone on something to cause the problem. But problem solved so as long as it does not become an epidemic all is well with my new phone.

Skating was great again on wednesday. I should be going on a biketrip on saturday. That should be fun. It's going to be like 60 km or so.

I'm sorry I'm not writing about anything interesting but I guess my life is jsut not that interesting at the moment. The highpoint of yesterday was going to buy another book and a little pizza to go for 1,50 (really cheap I think and not having an oven I miss having pizza) at the local mall. I also did laundry. Started reading the book but it felt like I'd seen it all before on Law&Order though the book takes place in London. I should have gone across the river to get a book but I was too tired. I will go there on Monday anyways so I'll try to make myself buy maybe two books then along with a dictionary and the book for my German course. Now I think I'll skip out early to smoke and loiter next to the workplace. Or buy some wine in 3 liter canisters from outside the gate, go home and get wasted while reading reruns of Law&Order and listening to music on the lovely laptop I have that functions mostly as a cd/dvd-player lately.

Uh oh I just noticed that since I have to go across the river on monday after work to the course I can have my dinner at Kim Fastfood. :) My favorite oriental fastfood restaurant here. Also the only one I've been to (3 times).

Questions

Is it approriate to eat tortilla chips at lunch and explain it by telling oneself that "they have protein"? Was is smart of me to enroll on a German course that will take 3 nights of the week for the next 3 months starting next week? Will I have any freetime left? Am I going to like the teacher? Why did I feel silly turning down four different kinds of grilled meat yesterday? Should I really stay here for January and February? Why do I sometimes feel like I want a cat? Where did all my saved up money go? When I come to Finland for Christmas what will I wear and will I freeze to death? Why did I not take my winter coats to Pori instead of leaving them in the cellar in Jyväskylä? Is my family going on a ski trip this winter and if I stay here for more time will I be able to come? Are any of my little froggies alive? What is that brown solid stuff that forms when I make tea? Why does none form when I make coffee? Why did my alarm clock, phone, freak this morning? Why did it insist I had had to press the snooze buttom twice when I had not done so, when waking up to the traffic to check the time? What am I going to have for dinner today before going off skating?

Oktoberfest, my way

Went to Oktoberfest in Munich on Saturday. Huge beer festival in case someone does not know. Had to leave on the 5:30 am train to get a table or something and to be there before one. (I do not get why in the end we had to leave so -add bad word here- early but that's what other people who planned the trip said we had to do.) So I woke up at 4 on Saturday "morning". We had to take all regional trains because we had this weekend ticket for five that only cost like 30 eur for us all so the trip took like 6 hours. The trip there went by rather fast though most likely because I was kind of out of it having woken up so early.

Oktober fest is like a big amusement park with tons of rides and stuff and we were planning to go on one but apparently everyone else chickened out or something so we did not go. We did get seats at this beer tent where they had a band and beer. Huge 1 liter servings of beer. There was also food like 1/2 a chicken if you wanted it. Very German. Well when we got there at one I thought since I was so out of it and feeling funny that it was not a good idea to have any alcohol yet so I did not get a beer. Everyone else did. So there was singing and raising glasses with everyone doing the "prost"-song and hitting their glasses together so beer flew in the air. Women waitresses carrying very many of the 1 liter beer mugs at a time and with huge trays of food for people. Very hot and cramped in the seats with lots of smoke from people smoking. Very German as in just what I thought it would be like.

Oh and many men were in lederhosen and women in traditional dresses. It was all quite funny first to see people in lederhosen.

Once my friends had drunk hte huge beers we went out to chill out of the smoke and heat of the beer tent. We found a place on a hill and also went to sleep. I think the others were kind of sick from drinking too much beer. Well as it turns out we did not go back into one of the beer tents and left at eight pm. So one might guess what this means. -I went to Oktoberfest but did not buy a beer!- How cool is that. Or weird. I did mean to buy one and also was going to buy a pretzel to go with it but it just didn't happen. I did have a few sips from my friends beers so I did have beer at Oktoberfest but just not more than a few sips. Didn't have any other alcoholic beverages either in case you are wondering.

Got home at 5 the next morning being starving and very tired. Slept till three in the afternoon. The trip back seemed to take forever.

What did I learn?
-I do not handle sleep deprevation well. Or I don't complain as such but it just doesn't work for me. I was feeling weird all day.
-I like men in lederhosen. After the innitial shock and ridiculousness of the whole outfit I did begin to like it. It might also have been because there were so many young good-looking men in the outfit. So I like men in lederhosen. I want to see more men in lederhosen. (They are now officially on my checking out list along with other qualities I you might know or want to know. Translation: a man with lederhosen walks past - I look twice.) I also liked the womens outfits. I might not have enough cleavage for the complete look but it might not be so bad.

So I had an interesting weekend. Not so much fun as such but certainly an experience. I've now been to Oktoberfest. No need to go again (though there would be more men in lederhosen...). Now I have to go to the store. I have like no food at home. Tomorrow is a grillfest of my department at work. I'm going. Should be interesting.

Stores and books

No luck getting a new cd. They had a plastic divider with "Cake" written on it but no cds in the slot. The stores suck here. Not just that specific store but most of them. In Finland I've never seen so many stores selling something that's not there (hitsin kaupat myy kaikki "ei oo:ta"). It happens in the supermarket as well as the bread store and electronics stores and all around the place. I mean it can't be so difficult to have noodles on the shelves at least once a week or even every other week. If they can't seem to have them then why even bother selling them. And why can't the fruit and vegetables be fresh in the supermarket? Why do I have to choose from 6 oranges when the store stocks like a hundred different sausages? And this is a big store I'm talking about. I mean if one is going to sell fruit and vegetables one should order enough to actually have more than a few ones that people would actually buy. I'm not going to buy just that one orange that looks good if I was going to buy oranges. I want at least two. If they've not got good oranges then I'll buy something else. Like juice. The selection of fruits and vegetables was better at the local Siwa (very small store) near where I lived in Jyväskylä even though it took like 4 times less space. (Yes, some things are better in Finland and I like to make this known.)

I did buy a book. This time I gave up, not feeling like reading about murders and such, and bought a brittish romance comedy book. I was at two stores for a total of half an hour or more before choosing. Of course the main character is very clueless when it comes to relationships even though she's been married for 15 years. Now she's telling me about this relationship she had before she got married to the guy she has two kinds with. Of course the character is coming back in to her life now that her new boss is friends with him. Same old story. It is entertaining even though I really don't respect the main character but I guess that's the point. Who ever thought Bridget Jones was smart?

The funny thing is that I always thought that I was way far away from such characters in these singles books (even though the one in the book I'm reading is married) but the scary truth is that I'm 25. That's about the age these books start telling about. Twenty-something, going on thirty, single desperate women. Oh I don't even want to think about it. Gladly I'm nowhere near desperate and besides who could put up with me not needing anyone anyhow.

What I'll do tonight

Inspired by pastorik's profile saying he likes Cake (the band) I decided to listen to the album I had bought while on exchange in the States a few years ago. I bought the album (Cake, Fashion Nugget) because a friend of mine said it was good. I did listen to it lots while there, having only like 3 cds, but I guess I listened to my Goo Goo Dolls album more. The point being that I didn't really remember what it was like and I couldn't remember liking the band all that much. Well now, having listened to the album for the past couple of weeks, I just love the singer's voice and attitude while singing. I looked the band up on the internet yesterday and it turns out the singer also has some opinions in common with me concerning the environment and such. Pictures also gave the guy a face although he was wearing sunglasses and a hat in all the pictures. I also like Cake.

So today I'm going to go buy another album by the band. I sure hope they have some on this side of the river since being kind of sick I'm not going to go across the river. I thought I'd also buy another book. I've finished the fantasy trilogy I've been reading since Maria sent the books to me and being sick and not being able to do lots (like going to the skating thing yesterday which really annoys me having waited all last week for it) I have to buy more books to read. I also have this book in German (Stephen King, Colorado Kid borrowed from my boss) but not having a dictionary it is kind of troublesome to read. (Maybe I should also get a dictionary. One of my friends was really suprised I didn't have one. Maybe it is kind of stupid not having one.) Yesterday I read the first chapter and I think I got most of the text but I might have missed the mood or something. I'm afraid I'll read the whole book (it's really short) and end up missing the whole story and missing the mood in a Stephen King book might be kind of tragic. (Oh, I've never read any of his books before.)

So tonight or once I leave work in a few minutes I'm going to go shopping and then most likely eat noodles and listen to music and read a book. Sounds like fun, eh?

Oh, my big brother sings in a punkrock band. :D That is so cool.

Back to school

Schools started here like two weeks ago. Now on my way to work I have to look out for little kids. The thing I've noticed is the fashion in school bags. All these little kids have these really weird bags. Bags no adult or person older than 12 would ever use. Or at least hopefully. They are colorfull and like squares (or well rectangles of a sort). They have these flaps that you have to open to get to the stuff. Kind of like they were old fashioned bags but of course with the colors and materials they are nowhere near old fashioned looking.

I was just wondering this morning about where fashions like that start. The bags are really big so they look kind of silly on all these little kids (really like most all of them have them) and I can't imagine them copying like any famous person unless the famous person is also a little kid. What factory came up with the idea? How did they sell it to all these kids to make their parents buy that specific kind of bag? Is it a status symbol and is there a certain brand that is the most expensive and only the popular kids have them?

I'm sure the bags are the kind with separate compartments for all the things one might and might not need for school. I remember a bag like that from when I was a kid. It did seem kind of cool. Luckily as far as I remember my parents bought me regular bookbags. Since we didn't have the kind with horses and such printed on them we got stickers on them at least in first grade. I can't remember what was on the sticker but my bag was blue and green, I think. Elina's was like pink and orange or red of some sort. Those bags were functional and no-one teased me because of my bag. Not that I can remember ever thinking about what was fashionable till in fourth grade it started to get fashionable to get these certain boots for girls (I never got or wanted ones), Coca-Cola yo-yos and Skooshes or whatever those plastic stringy things were. I guess times have changed or else I was a weird kid.

Tuesday

Yes. I survived the weekend. It was kind of nice actually. Didn't go anywhere but shopping and skating till sunday. Sunday there was this dinner party sort of thing with the mostly french people. Yeah and I was my new quiet self again. They were all talking about how they all drank way too much wine on saturday and such. I'm kind of glad no-one asked me to go. I don't really go well with very drunk people who don't know how to drink properly. I'm not the "hold my friend's hair up while they throw up" -kind of person. (This test on the internet once said that I'm not very compassionate. It did also say that I'm very unlikely to go insane or have any sort of mental problems.)

I bought a new coat and jeans while shopping. I only went shopping to get out of my appartment into the lovely weather. I think I might have also gotten some sun. And walking is exercise. The weather has been really nice for the past week. I hope it is also nice tomorrow for the skating thing.

I might be sort of sick. As in my throat is kind of funny. Probably will have to stay at home tonight so as to be able to go skating tomorrow. (Might have gone to see a movie.) I'll have to eat lots of fruit and such. I haven't been doing enough of that but I always used to make smoothies like every day since last christmas so I don't really know how to eat fruit anymore. Drinking is much easier. (Oh, I miss having a smoothie while munching on chili flavored giant corn seeds. That's what I had all spring almost.) So, I'll be leaving work early now to get on getting better. I don't get sick.

It's friday again

Another week has gone again. I think time just goes too fast sometimes though now that I think about it last weekend does seem like it was ages ago. I think I should be getting more done than what I am. I am getting good interesting results so no problem really and sometimes working in the lab is just about waiting. I've done quite much today though I could work for at least an hour more but don't know what to do anymore. I've set everything ready for monday so then I'll know what to do. I don't feel like writing stuff and I've done all the stuff I need to play with on excel. So I guess I could just go home early. It is a friday after all. No use just sitting at my desk here in the lab.

I feel like staying home tonight. I've gotten bored of always having to see people at night and at bars or just drinking elsewhere. I want to do something. If I want to drink I can do that at home all alone and talk to my plant or something. Though I won't of course but I could. Ok so I'll most likely read a book tonight unless someone calls me or something. I like reading especially since this week I've been busy and have not spent much time at home. I think I'm tired and that is why staying at home seems such a nice plan. I haven't been getting my 9 hours of sleep.

Oh, I think I've learned to drink beer. Yesterday I had a big pils and it wasn't that bad. I've been practising with radlers which are beer with a bit of lemon juice. As long as I don't have to drink big gulps of beer I do quite well drinking it. But I think it better to drink slowly than fast so no problem there. It would be worse if I could only drink beer really fast. Then I'd get drunk. Now I can just sip my drink slowly and "enjoy" it. They also have like banana flavored weiss beer here which I think I have to try. It sound sort of weird but yesterday this guy at the finnish gathering had like two of those so they can't be all that bad. Though lots of thing people drink and eat can be bad (like beer though now I'm getting used to it). Banana beer. What will they think of next.

I would leave right now but I can't decide what I should do when I leave. Should I go buy bread and a pretzel (I feel like a pretzel. It would be my second one. The kind with seeds and no salt on to. I don't like salt that much.) or go to the store and get something to cook tonight. I don't think I should go to the store. I think maybe I'll just go buy some bread and go eat a pretzel and fruit at home and read a book and then decide what to do. Good plan.

I love skating and now remember why

Yesterday evening was really great. I had probably the most fun since the Nada Surf concert. I finally went to one of those skatenights. 30km on skates all around the city on the roads. On the autobahns too. I think I've never skated so much and so fast. Didn't even get tired really. Or I did but not like very tired and mostly just because it was nine thirty when we finished and usually by that time I'm in bed reading a book. It took us like 2 hours to do the route so with the pauses we must have been going at least 20km/h for most of the way. That's quite fast. I could not stop grinnig while skating. It was fun not having to look too much where I was going but to just go where they led us. I think there must have been like 200 people skating or at least it felt like it. The heel of my braking foot started aching at the end but it's ok today. I thought I might get a gigantic blister but luckily I didn't. Otherwise I'm only feeling the exercise a bit today. I might be walking funny (though I usually probably do anyway). There's a similar happening across the river in a week and I think I will go and then again in two weeks on this side of the river. I hope it doesn't rain on either day. I'm really looking forward to them. Skating is so great. I'd almost forgotten with not having done much of it for the past couple of years.

I even went swimming on tuesday. It was nice. The water was not too cold and the sun was shining nicely and going in the water to just float on my inflatable matress after work was very relaxing. The weekend should be good weather wise so I think I'll want to go swimming again as long as I get some company.

Today is this meeting of finnish people who live in the area. I'm going there though it is sort of funny to come to Germany to meet finnish people. But it should be nice. We are going to a restaurant so I'll get some proper food hopefully. Looking forward to that.

So when is everyone coming here? I've promised to dog-sit for a couple of weekends so those will be taken though a friend or family member of mine coming here is more important. When I do dog-sit I'll have internet for the whole weekend. And an oven. It should be nice. So most likely on the weekend of the 6th of october I'll be online. Cool. I can check out all the sites on the internet I don't want to visit at work and get to chat to people or at least hopefully unless people start avoiding me. Uh oh, I can also post pictures. The dogs should also stop me from sitting in front of my computer all day so no worries there.

Gotta go. Or don't have to but want to.

Biking and food

I had quite a nice weekend. No parties. On Saturday we were supposed to fix a bike for me to take to the biketour and to be able to keep as a loan from my boss but the new pieces for it were wrong so no luck there. Later on I got to do some baking though. It was nice. I wish I had an oven. Sunday was the biketour. I got up at seven and at nine we were on our way. We decided to only do the 50km route which was a good idea. We ended up biking 63km with a miximun speed of 43km/h (cool downhill :D) and probably an average speed of 20km/h. The bicycle I took wasn't that fast but it was better than the company bikes. I even got to try my bosses new very good bike which made me want to get a new bike myself. Oh but it was really nice biking for such a long time. I got tired at times but then I just kept going. The whole trip took like 4 hours. Not a bad way to spend a Sunday. For the rest of the day I got to just lounge out at home knowing I'd already done something that day. I want to go again but I want to have a good bike for it. Apparently bikes are less expensive here. I am really thinking buying one though I don't really "need" a new bike and buying an expensive one might just get it stolen, especially here. And then again I don't know what kind of bike I want and so on.

Maybe it's smart saving money so I can have my lovely "I can buy all the cheese I want and bake every day if I want to no matter what the cakes and such end up costing" -life when I come back. Yeah.

So I might be hungry right now. Food, food, food. I feel like talking about food. What should I eat today. I'd like to go out to eat but there's no one to go with. No one likes food like I do. Weird people. Must go home to eat.

What a day.

I think I've had a hangover today. I may also have been drunk while walking to work this morning. Everything looked different. It might also have been the sun as it is finally appearing or the fact that having to walk I had more time to look at things than when I usually pedal as fast as the company bike will go. The day hasn't been bad though. I've gotten lots done mostly having to do with the fact that I had lots to do.

Yesterday I got busy with work at around four in the evening when I had this new assignment from my boss. Having been sort of lazy and knowing I'd have lots to do today I decided to do it right off. Didn't take more than like 30 min. I'd had a pretty long day already so I just checked my e-mails and started leaving work. I had to go to the store and there was a party to go to across the river. I walked out of the lab and stopped in my tracks, said the word "damn" most likely out loud lots of times and would have hit my head on the wall while saying it if my brain wasn't my future livelyhood - I'd forgotten to get the bike key! (For those that don't know I'm borrowing the company bike which I have to return every morning just to take it again in the afternoon, not that anyone else uses it since there are lots of them.) Had to rush down to the office but of course it was locked since it was almost five already. I was mad, truly pissed. (Being mad at myself is weird. There no-one I can take the anger out on. Just have to swallow it.) I'm not good at being angry and luckily I had enough control not to get my usual side reaction from not being able to handle that particular emotion because that would have made me more angry and I think I would have just freaked out. Well, I had to walk home. At the gate so girl was trying to sell me something I think. If she had come any nearer I think I would have hit her. Now I just gave her an angry look and waved my hands around. I was not in the mood to try to speak understandable German. If the kids on the street had bumbed into me like they almost did I might have bumbed back onto them with like force. I was enraged. (See I really needed the bike where I was going to go.)

I had planned to go buy myself a new pair of shoes, ones I've been meaning to buy for as long as Ive been here, so in spite of my mood I decided to go check if they still had them. They did have one pair and just in my size. What luck. Those shoes and me were apparently meant to be together. That cheered (spelling??) me up some.

I decided to take the tram as close as I could get to the place where the party was. It was a wine party. Everyone brought a bottle of wine and there was food and we drank the wine. It was nice though I figured it was going to be quite a party since if I drink a bottle of wine I get pissed (the brittish one this time...). Not that I've ever drank a whole bottle or at least not that I know of or have calculated how many servings that would include and such. The party was fun though I was my overly quiet self that I am since most of the talking was done in German. Actually all but the talking by me. All was fine until this guy mentioned the most only thing he knew about me was the incident at the beach with me being pushed under water and getting mad. Damn if it wasn't for me still being mad about the bike thing I may have been fine. As it was I got upset about that then. A person with knowledge of me only as a quiet girl that gets upset easily is just not something I can tolerate. As it was, me getting upset about that probably didn't help at all. Well at least I wasn't quiet. I just had to leave soon after. Could not take it any more and it was really late.

There were no more trams going past the stop nearest and on my way home so I had to walk. It was a pretty long way though I don't know how long and I didn't time myself. There were bunnies on the way though. Cute little bunnies. Oh yeah, I was drunk walking home. I got home safe and in a better mood because of the bunnies in the park. It was cool. There were lots of them. (I want a little bunny. Or I really would never get one since there brains work like my fishes and they're a lot bigger and make more mess. No fun there though they are furry.) Went to sleep and even had the sence to put some drain cleaner, I'd bought that day, in my sink and shower. I got the bio one since the thought of having sodium hydroxide (NaOH) pellets in my appartment was not appealing. Nasty little things. I could not believe they sell them in pellets.

Long post. Sunday there is this biking thing and I'm going to bike 100km. I hope it doesn't rain. I hope I can bike that much. I hope there are no big parties on Saturday since the biking starts at seven in the morning. I hope the weekend will be nice. I need some fun. I need to get going home.