Thesis handed in

I just handed in my thesis to one of my professors. The other one is on vacation so he's not going to get it till next week or like the Monday of the one after that or something. But anyways. I just got so sick and tired of not having handed it in so I just went ahead and did it. Didn't get mom's corrections yet but I'm sure the professors won't really notice and I still have time to make the final corrections to the one that goes into print. My professors might even have some suggestions. Who knows. But now I have to continue with other work or something. I have exams coming up and a Swedish presentation and another presentation about my work in Germany. I have to start doing those.

Otherwise nothing special. The gym was nice. I'll go again tomorrow and most likely on Sunday. Though the weather is supposed to be really nice this weekend so I also have to go inline-skating and hang out outside loads. But I'm sure I can fit in a couple of hours of working out at the gym. I think I'll have to become like a fitness freak or something. I'd have like a purpose because right now with graduation just around the corner I really don't feel like I have one anymore. It's weird.

The weekend and bouldering

I had a really great weekend. I was in Helsinki seeing my sister. We went on a major shopping spree and I bought like loads of clothes. Or like loads for me personally but not like loads if compared to some people maybe. I even bought a skirt. Summer's coming. I also bought a pair of pants for like sports. Now I have two pairs of pants for sports. I think that's quite an achievement. I'm not big on buying sports clothes. We did not go partying or anything since my sister was doing this running thing and I was going climbing on Sunday. We just played singstar on Saturday and went over to watch a movie and eat at a neighbor's. It was a really good movie. One I'd already seen but great a second time too. I'm having a blackout on the name.

On Sunday the weather was fabulous so I got to go climbing outside. To be truthfull I have to say that I like climbing outside and all but sometimes there just isn't so many nice places for me to climb the rocks. They tend to be sort of difficult. But this time I had no problems. I climbed four routes and tried a couple more with no success. I just didn't have the strength in my fingers and arms. I have to train more. But I really got into the bouldering thing. I want to go again and get my own pad. Oh and I climbed this one really high route and it was way scary like had I fallen from like almost two meters. But I got up it and boy did it feel good. I have pictures to prove I was up there. None from the route but I think people will believe me anyways.

I'm sorry if this post is boring and I'm sure I've not written about anything I was meaning to but I'm just tired after a long day. But the week's just started. I think it should be a good one. I'm starting at the gym tomorrow. Scary.

Damn post office

This whole weeks I've been waiting for mom's corrections on the language of my thesis to come in the post. she sent them on Monday. Thus they should have arrived on Tuesday. I've gotten nothing. And had I gotten the thing my thesis would now be in the hands of the professor and thus done. No such luck. Mom called me and told me the letter had come back to her with a note that I'd moved from my sister's adress to which my mail went to while I was in Germany. "Yeah doh! I moved to the adress that was on the envelope!" Why the heck did they want to send the letter to Espoo?! I just had to check that I do indeed still live where I think I live and the internet service of the post is telling me that I live in the address that I'm supposed to live in. So I don't get what the problem is.

Ok so this is not the first errot they have made. When I first changed my adress back from the temporary postal service to mail my stuff to my sister I did end up getting my sister's and her boyfriend's shared mail. I sent an e-mail to the postal office and the problem seem to have been solved. I did not get my sister's mail anymore. The problem might be that I have actually not gotten like almost any mail in the past month or so. I do recall getting my phonebill at one time but nothing else this spring really. I've been waiting for my Pirkka-magazine too since I should be getting bonus money. Has my mail really gone missing? I'm getting sort of worried here.

And my sister also just moved so did that mess up the situation even more? Has she been getting her mail? I think she'd have told me if she'd gotten my mail. I mean how difficult can it be for the people at the post office to check their own computers to see where I live? And I know my sister and me have almost the same name and yet again today as I was writing my maturity essay about my thesis the name was wrong. Really annoying.

I was supposed to work right now. I came home to work on the thesis wishing it to have finally arrived. Now I'm just all emotional or angry and I've just had coffee so I should just freak out at any moment now. No use working and I hate it since I've gotten like nothing done this week. But I have to pack I guess and get going to Helsinki. Shopping and climbing should be fun. I just need to forget about work. Otherwise I've had a rather great week. I hope the weekend is good too.

Post #140: More work and last weekend

I think I may need more work. I mean I have like things to do but I think that after I get my thesis thing out of the way I will just not have like enough to do. It's sort of stupid really. I have to go ask for more work tomorrow. I mean I have this article to write but it needs to be discussed before I can write like any more than I have and the pictures I have to draw need to also be discussed since I have now drawn the first drafts. I think I should get my thesis done tomorrow since I just need to check the language with the help of the comments my mom has sent me in the post (I hope the thins arrives today) and like check and check even though I'm sick of checking it. But when it's done I need more work. I mean I have stuff I need to study and this presentation I need to do but nothing concrete in addition to the article. I hate not having work at work. I shall talk to my boss about it tomorrow.

Now a short recap of my weekend. I don't know if it interests you but I don't care.

So on Friday I went over to a friends to watch Mulholland Drive. A really weird movie really. A bit too weird for me maybe. I like things that have beginnings and endings and like a clear story really. But it was an experience and otherwise the night was nice.

On Saturday there was this big happening festival sort of thing in Jyväskylä. It was my first time at this thing even though I've sort of lived in the city for seven years. I'd just always been someplace else like at my summer job. It was great. I watched a kids show (Kössi Kenguru) at a museum, tried canoing, saw a band or two play and watched a part of a downhill bicycling competition and an accident in it and out of the blue got my friend to come try line dancing with me. It was great fun. And then after all this activity I sort of met up with this person for a date. Oh I did get to follow a sort of telephone quarrel between a couple from the side of the guy at this apartment I visited. It was quite funny really. It was just one of those "that would never happen to me since I just am not that sort of a person" -things. It was like watching tv or something. But the rest of the night I spent in a bar. Didn't drink too much. Had a conversation with an old man who kept telling about how he watches loads of porn and how although I have small breasts, I'm still really sexy. I was like "yeah, thanks". I mean I guess he was an "expert" on what's sexy since he's seen so many porn films.

On Sunday I went inline-skating around the lake (Jyväsjärvi). Like 13 km or something. It was the second time I did it and it was fun. I think I shall try doing it at least once a week if the weather is nice. After that I actually did just about nothing. I did make food and so but I didn't even clean the aquariums and had to do that on Monday. But yeah, fun weekend. Saw friends, did new things and ate good too since I made yummy food on Saturday and Sunday.

Work, work, no work

This one program doesn't work and I can't do my work if it doesn't work. I'm sort of annoyed about it since it should most likely just be updated to the newer version and it would work like it does on my own computer. And I think the program has like a free academic license so it's just about some people being lazy about updating it. I of course can not install anything on my work computer. I kind of think I should go home to work on my own computer but I'm afraid I'd not get any work done since like the weather is also way great and I could go like inline-skating or something though it might still be wet in places because it rained in the morning.

I was also in the lab this morning. I had to crystallize some things for this course I'm going to take in Zürich in August. I don't like going into strange labs to work since I feel really dumb. Just like I did when I started in Germany. It does get better though so I just have to take it till I know where everything is and so on. Luckily I only had to dissolve these two compounds in solvents and then just let them evaporate. Not very complicated at all.

But I think I just have to go home to work since it's not seeming like I'll get any work done at work. I can go outside to do something later in the evening. I just have to make myself be serious about getting the stuff done so I can move on to something more interesting. That is what I shall do.

I've come to notice a lack of comments on my blog. Not that I need comments really but it would be nice to know who's reading or if anyone is actually reading though I think I now write this more for like "therapy" and a lack of people to complain to about things.

Pause

I don't know what to do. I had the last lesson of my speech class this morning. Then I went for lunch and came to the office. I had loads of stuff to do but now they are sort of done. Well just the stuff that really had to be done today. Now I'm just really not in the mood to start with my thesis nor anything else new. But I kind of have to hang out in the office for like another hour before I have to go to my Swedish class. So it's another ten hour day really. I think I can take a pause to write in this blog if it gets me in the mood to actually start doing something again. I'm just sort of feeling like I want to go home, rest a while and start the weekend.

Today has actually been quite nice up till now. I actually had company at lunch, which was nice, and the speech class was quite nice too as always.

So I think my brain may be sort of empty at the moment. I'd go for coffee but the cafeteria is not open. (And well, yes, there is a coffee room but I just haven't gotten around to going there yet. I'm sure I will one day.) Maybe I'll just try studying Swedish a bit more to get in the mood and actually be able to say something in the class.

But there's another weekend just around the corner. Way hey. I hope it's a good one. :)

Climbing, Swedish and my lunch company

I went climbing today. I just came home a while ago. Took a shower and now I'm bored. Tomorrow I have no work and I feel like I should be somewhere at like a party or with friends doing something but I'm at home doing nothing. But oh well. I had a rather nice day. I think I should just go to bed and read a book.

I had my first Swedish lesson today. I have to say I was sort of nervous about it. I mean really. Like about not being able to speak any Swedish and like making a fool of myself. But like everything for me (knock on wood) it went really well in the end. I mean I did start up speaking German like all the time but the only thing we had to do in front of the whole class was like tell something about another person we had interviewed. I'd told the teacher I'd probably speak loads of German but she said I did speak Swedish which was really the best comment one can get really. :) But I do have tons of stuff I have to work on. Like remembering words and grammar stuff. But it should go ok as long as I pass the course and get to graduate. Oh but I do have to mention that there is another Elisa there and it bothers me. And well it would maybe be alright but she's the sort oof person who looks like she's judging people all the time and like she just never has any fun. I mean really. I hate to be mean but is it her face or is she just really what she looks like...? Well the good part of course is that I'll now be the nicer Elisa and of course the prettier one since I like to think I at least smile once in a while. (I'm sorry I'm being horrible. I'm sure she's actually nice.)

Climbing went quite good too. I got up all the walls I'd gotten up before which might not sound that challenging but one of them is quite complicated at the very top. (uh oh, hands sweating) I think it's rather great that I now have two people to go climbing with. I hope they put up with me and keep going climbing with me.

There's this guy at the university that I think keeps checking me out. It's like the same one that I saw at Rentukka. It's way funny really. Today I went to eat at the same time with him like almost every day. Now he like took his food at the same time and I had this feeling that if this stupid person in front of me had not taken so damn long to take his salad and stuff he'd maybe had sat at the same table with me. But he got to take the salads and stuff first and thus got to seat himself before me. And well I just sat in the table next to his since I wasn't sure whether it was just me. Besides, I have another project at the moment. But one day I'll have to talk to him for sure. At least say hi since it's obvious that he notices me and I him. And were both mostly always eating alone. I like company.

But I think I'll pick up my book and get reading. I don't want to waste my time at this computer. (Though I still have to watch my virtual fish grow and then sell their parents off so the tanks don't get overcrowded.)

At work

I am in need of some socializing so I'll just write in my blog. Logical, I'm sure. I tried drawing these pictures of these structures with this program this morning but the thing would not open the files I made. I don't know why. I never had any problems with it at home. I think I have to draw the things at home or something. Not having the things in that specific format would mean that I would have to draw them all again and again if someone wanted them in like an angle 2 degrees different or something. I don't want that. So as there is no point in drawing the structures I printed my thesis and began reading it. It was quite nice reading it while having coffee in the cafeteria but now that I'm in the office it's no so much fun anymore. Thus I need a pause.

I went to see a play yesterday. It wasn't that good but I don't mind. At least it was a cultural activity and just hanging out with a friend of mine was nice anyways.

Today I'm going to play badminton and then I have to go to the store and do laundry. So nothing special really. I think I have to read so Swedish since my Swedish course starts tomorrow and every time I've tried to speak some Swedish in my head it has turned out to be German after a word or two. Not good.

So nothing special really. I have to get back to my reading now.

What a weekend

This weekend has been sort of weird and well it's not over yet now is it. Though nothing big ever happens on Sundays. I just have clean my aquariums today. I just did the small one and I still have to big one to go. I don't like changing water to the big one because of all the fish that keep bothering me while I do it. I should get rid of some of the fish but I don't want to kill them off. But I like aquariums and I have to like cleaning them too since it's a big part of the hobby.

So yesterday I had an appointment at the hairdressers at 12. I was thinking that would be late enough but because Friday went late it really wasn't late enough. I sort of had a hangover or else I was still drunk. Really embarrashing. I even had stuff to do in town like going for coffee with a friend of mine so that was all weird. I was like having coffee and apologicing for being kind of out of it. But my friend did not mind so much or at least that's what he told me. But yeah I went home and had an elongated nap before getting ready to watch the Eurovision song contest somewhere. The problem was that I really did not have a perfect person to watch it with as I think I wrote last time. And well because of that and one friend of mine kind of disappearing I went to watch the thing all by myself at Rentukka. It was kind of weird being in a bar all alone. I had to lie to this old guy that like some seats were taken so I would not be forced to sit next to him all night. Luckily this one person later asked about the chairs and I was like "yeah. they're free". I sort of knew the person from before but I did not talk to him other than telling him to watch my chair while I went to the toilet. So I watched the contest with like maybe a hundred people but really all alone. It wasn't so bad though. The atmosphere was nice and I am now quite proud that I had the courage to go there and actually have fun. That one cute guy was also there but I did not have a chance to talk to him since I was really just watching tv. Checking him out at times was sort of fun though.

But yeah. Friday I went to a friends place. A kind of extempore party. It was me and four guys. Well in a way there's really nothing new about such a situation but it was sort funny at times. But I had a way great time. We even went to a bar but like really late and one of the guys had left before that. Going to the bar might not have been a good idea though it was loads of fun. We went to this like heavymetalrock- bar and were probably the first people on the dance floor all night. The funny thing is that since I'd been to the sauna I did not even have any make-up on and I'm sure my hair was quite horrendeous. But it was all good. I do think I won't be going there again in a while maybe. Or I hope there weren't any people there that semi- know me. See I was there with 3 guys. Then I danced like a slow song with one of them and then when we went back to the others I sort of sat in the lap of another. All in good fun really. Nothing serious but on-lookers might have sort been like "what?". I mean it was really hilarious and that's why I did it.

The way home was fun too since part of the group lived in the same direction and then there were these exchange students that we ended up talking to on the way. It felt just like my second year of studies or something. I haven't had so much fun walking home in quite a while. I just keep laughing when I think about it.

But that's the story of my weekend so far. Now I think I have to clean the big aquarium and start making something to eat soon.

Speech, Eurovision and a sort of confession

I think I sort of have a headache. It really sucks since I should be writing my thesis or well not really writing but correcting and looking through the reference like I've been doing all week. I sort of feel like I should either go outside for a walk or possibly a run to clear my head or have a nap. But I don't think I'll be doing either. Instead I decided to write in my blog. I'm sure there's some sort of logic in me doing this.

I gave my speech thing on polymorphism in my speech class today. Rather unluckily there were only 5 people listening and that included the teacher. Usually there has bee like 10 people. Everyone just had other things to do today. But I think it's their loss. My subject was way interesting...:) The speech went rather well. I have to admit I had not really practiced though I had thought about it for like 4 weeks or something since I was the last to do my presentation. I was sort of nervous before it but that disappeared once I started speaking. I was surprised that the thing took only 5 minutes and 5 seconds which was like 5 seconds over the set time for the thing. I was scared it would go a lot over that. People remarked that I did quite good since I had loads of examples and well my presentation did sort of center around them. But it would have been really unwise to start explaining the thermodynamics and kinetics of the crystallization process and such so I had to be kind of vague. Though I think the group might now have a sort of twisted idea about the subject since they did not really understand the nature of like things like molecules and compounds but that's not really my problem in the end. I mean I did not want to present something stupid like what a "crystal structure" is and thus gave them the freedom to think what they want about it really. Now I just have to go watch the video of my speech next week and comment on it myself. I wonder how stupid I looked.

The speech class was fun today since we did little debates ans even told stories. I like telling stories about my life (like why else would I be writing this...) so it was all good.

I have a sort of problem on who I want to watch the Eurovision song contest with tomorrow. I know I want to watch it in Rentukka, the student village bar that has like a big screen for watching it, but I don't know who'll join me. If all else fails I think I will have to go there by myself and hope this cute boy will come and talk to me or that I'll go talk to him. It's just someone I met ages ago in some party of a few parties and haven't talked to in years. I think he still recognizes me. I was watching the semifinal yesterday for an hour or so in the same bar and he was there. Maybe he'll also be there tomorrow. But it's really not like "that". I just thought it might be a fun addition to the night.

Confessions... I've been meeting guys through the internet. It's been fun and all but last weekend I just decided to stop it. I deleted my profile thing (it was a really good one if I do say so myself). The reason for it was that I think I've sort of become addicted to meeting new people and it wasn't getting me anywhere but into problems finding time for my real friends. So no more blind dates for me unless my friends set them up, which they won't anyway. The problem is just that now I sort of have to find something else to do when I'm bored. Like since I don't really ever watch tv anymore I'll need a new "hobby" to take up the time I was using entertaining myself with the messages so guys had sent me and answering them in a sometimes rather overly honest manner. But yeah, I've now confessed that I've been on maybe a dozen or so blind dates in the last year and a half though I did have an eight month pause while in Germany. And I do have to admit that some of these guys I still see on occasion just because they are rather nice.

My thesis sucks and "I joined a gym?!"

I've been trying to get the references in order for my thesis today. So that like every thing I've written has some place I can say I got it from. The smart thing to do would have been to document where I got the things in the first place loads better but no can do. The situation is not as bad as it might be but I'm experiencing some problems due to two very good books that I've taken loads of my personal knowledge from being in Germany and out of reach. I have this one new book that has turned out to be better than I expected but I was just looking at the table of contents of this one book I had in Germany and boy would I like to have it in front of me now.

But yeah for the past week or so I've been thinking my thesis sucks. I mean I want to get a good grade and what I have now just won't do. Some parts are written from a point of view I no longer agree with now that I know better but I'm just too lazy to really start writing anything totally again and thinking about it too much. Today I did get past one episode of laziness so that's something anyhow.

I did something crazy yesterday. I joined a gym. It cost like way really ridiculously much and I think I may have like an attitude problem with guided exercise in groups as in aerobics and stuff and also to like working out in the gym. And well that's what it's going to be all about. What was I thinking? Well I've been rationalizing it since I decided to join the place and this is what I came up with.
1. If I pay way loads I have to actually go there and work out.
2. I want to get in better shape to be able to climb better.
3. Attitude problems are bad - I need to get over them.
4. There is a bus from where I live almost directly to the place.
5. In the summer I can ride my bicycle.
6. I might not have anyone to play badminton with in the summer and I need something other than climbing.
7. When I'm like 35 it would be really bad to start in a gym. If I do it now I won't have to be embarrassed about my inexperience later (when I might be fat and ugly).
8. My twin sister is doing it - I am genetically able. And I can go to her gym when I go to visit her and vice versa.
9. It might turn out to be fun.
10. And a friend of mine pointed out to me today - there might be loads of single guys there. :)

So yeah. It might not be so crazy after all although I do have to admit some of those reason are not strictly rational. Then again it might be crazy but I'm a grown-up (well at least in theory) and I can waste my money on what ever I want as long as it does not harm the people close to me. And spending money on one's well-being is never wasted. Is that not what money is for? But lets hope it was a good decision. I start in like three weeks. I'm sure I'll tell you all about it.

Weekend

I did quite good at climbing yesterday. I got up this negative wall I'd gotten up for the first time last time and it seemed easier though I did have to really want up there again. I was great being able to do it. Now I have to do it every time. My and a frined of mine even went with the bus and got there ok. Back too though we missed the buss in the worst possible way - I just went past as we were walking to the bus stop. But now matter since the sun was shining even though it was quite cold. We walked to the center of this town where there were other busses going and had to wait only 10 minutes. Then I had to wait 10 more minutes in the center of the city to get the bus all the way home. But it was not that bad. A car would be better but what can one do.

I woke up quite early this morning and decided to do some laundry earlier than I had planned. All was good until I just went down to get my sheets, towels and other assorted clothes from the dryer. Some jerk had taken my clothes from the dryer and put theirs in there. And my clothes were not properly dry yet. That really pissed me off. If I put 60 minutes on the dryer and get back in 60 minutes I want to have my stuff in the dryer going through the 10 minute cooling cycle. I do not want my clothes to be on top of the dryer while some other person's laundry is happily drying below. So I just opened the dryer and stopped the persons clothes from drying. I really hate drying towels in the appartment when I have tons of other clothes to dry like the 7 pairs of jeans I just washed. And like now I had to leave my socks jsut on my bed to dry out completely. I'm quite pissed off.

But otherwise all is good. I may need to make some coffee. Then it's off to buy stuff for my balcony. Finally. Joy.

The Vappu and other blabberings

It feels like it's quite late already though it's not even three just yet. I guess it's just because my office is in a very quiet part of the building and like no-one ever walks past. So yeah, I'm slacking at work and just writing in my blog. Well I just read this article that will be a very useful source for my thesis. That's something at least.

Vappu, the big party thing that sort of celebrated the end of another year of studies for students, was this week. My sister, Elina, was visiting me and I think I had a rather good Vappu. Or like really good in actuality. Like last year I had a really good Vappu but the two years before that were not so good or rather horrible in fact if I am able to have a horrible time. But this year was nice. The weather could have been warmer but it did not matter so much once we got inside after having to drink the bottle of Freixenet I'd bought for opening after they put the hat on this statue. So we drank the sparkly wine really fast and went for Irish coffee to my favorite hangout bar. Played some Trivial Pursuit till we got way bored of not knowing the right answers, played with my and Elina's great new phones that we'd just bought and had another set of various coffee drinks. That is me, Elina and this guy. Then we went to crash the party at this other guys place and ended up going to a bar in the end. There was this band in the bar and I liked them. We also met up with another friend of mine who knew the band. After we left the bar to go home, me and Elina had to run away from like these two guys of which I knew the other. We got home safe even though because of the really long taxi line we decided to walk and it was like below freezing outside.

On Tuesday, the day after, the whole bunch of us went to have an early dinner/late lunch in the city before Elina left. It turned out to be quite a nice day. Me and Elina even went for a walk by the lake in the early afternoon. It was nice and sunny.

Usually Vappu is the time to look back to what I've gotten done during the past year of studies. This year, however, it's sort of difficult. I've been away for most of the year. Not that I haven't gotten loads of things done. I have. It just feels weird since in a way I just started my studies again after a year of like working on my thesis. I'm still waiting for some courses to start when usually I would be finished by now with maybe like an exam or two left. And now I'm like going to graduate soon. Weird. So looking back to what I've accomplished did not really work. But I suppose it does not really matter. I can look back another time.

But nothing special going on really. Working, hanging out with friends, playing badminton, climbing, going to a meeting today and to stand-up comedy and a movie during the upcoming weekend. I do have to like time to do the dishes, wash some laundry and clean my aquariums and flat. I just get bored at home and have to call someone every time I know I have a free night.