Uncomprehending faces

Working is not working so I thought I'd do some writing. I've been held three demonstrations, that is I've been telling people the answers to their homework, this week. I did the same thing last year and this year it's a bit easier. It's just that at least yesterday as I was looking at the students' faces I could just see that they did not get the stuff. And I'm like "this stuff is easy, you just have to think a little and pay attention" but apparently for some it isn't. I think it must be because they haven't really studied the stuff or else the idea of how it goes just battles with their logic somehow. But I hope at least some people understand a little better after listening to me for an hour and a half.

I'm going to go to Germany in the beginning of December and I'll be working there for at least six months. I'm going to keep my flat since otherwise it would just be too big a deal to go there. The bnd has promised to take care of my fish and frogs. Other details are still not worked out yet but it's looking 95% sure at least. I wasn't planning on anything like this but things just happen sometimes and one just has to go along. Right now I'm at the stage where I'm wondering what I should do with the big bottles of shampoo and conditioner I can't take with me and figuring out things I can buy there for cheaper (bicycle) but I'm not really into thinking about what I'm actually going to do with having to leave behind people I'd like to see often. Perhaps I'll read loads of classics this time instead of the kinds of books I read before. Or else it might be that I'll not have so much time to read since I'll certainly have loads of work. At least I'll have climbing. It saved me last time.

Me, the bnd and a friend were on this course where we learned to climb so that we take to rope up with us instead of it being priorly hanging from the top of the wall. It's loads more scary since you can actually fall quite a distance but it's important to learn since there are no ropes hanging on the cliffs outside. Me and the bnd bought a rope and some other stuff we needed to be able to climb with such a technique. It's quite fun in a way but a little scary. I've only now done it like once without the added safety of another rope but I'm just wanting to get the technique right. I should practice falling a bit since at some time I am going to fall and there is no stopping it. (*hands and feet sweating*) But don't worry, it really isn't all that much more dangerous when done right and that's what we are going to do. And I'm not planning to go climbing mountains just yet. I am planning to go snowboarding down mountains but that is way different.

Ireland and other trips

I spent the last week in Ireland. It was a really nice vacation though for some people the idea of cooking, cleaning and looking after a baby for a week doesn't sound like a vacation. But the mother of the baby is my sister and I'm the godmother and I actually do like cooking. And cleaning is sometimes also therapeutic. So I spent a week not thinking about work at all so that makes it a good holiday. There was even a fun party on the last day so what else could one ask for...? - The bnd to visit? - Well he was there for the weekend. :) Next time I go to Ireland, though, I want to go a road trip somewhere or maybe a nature trail and such. It's time to see the country a little more again with the bnd of course.

It was weird on the plane there as there were these elderly women seated next to me going to Ireland and Dublin as tourists and I was like just going to see my sister. I think a while back, every time I was on a plane I was also going to like some new place or such but now it seems I'm always going to the same places and never on vacation (which is not true since I have gone on loads of vacations in the past year). It might also be that I'm getting so used to flying that I just don't have that excitement of the unexplored that most people usually have when on a plane. I'm just like "here we go again". People reading tour books right next to me when I'm just going to see family or on work business is just sort of funny. It's sort of like is someone was reading a tour book of Tampere on a train there.

Work has started out good enough after the vacation. Right now I'm just writing here since I have a small headache and don't want to start anything new before heading home. So I'm just having tea at my desk.

I might go to Germany for the whole spring for like six months. It's not certain yet but it's looking possible. I'm sort of excited about going since I'll get to do interesting research but I'm also afraid I'll have to do some growing up again. And then there is my lovely apartment that I don't want to leave and the best boyfriend in the whole world that I want to see daily and not like once a month for one weekend. But if it all works out so that I can go, I'll go. It might be one of those chances of a lifetime that I keep stumbling into. So you might be hearing loads more on the matter in a months time at the latest. I have been stationary for like a year and a half so it seems it's time to go.